In this and other posts, I will come out of my shell, telling some of my biggest secrets, giving advice, and more. I live in Castle Rock, Colorado, go to Castle View High School, have six siblings, have cerebral palsy, which is a huge challenge at times, including feeling like I don’t fit in.
If you know me, you know that I like to act tough and to make people think I don’t care when I really do. This is because it is my way keeping myself from getting hurt emotionally. I’ve lost friends, made friends, and struggled with depression, insecurities, and feeling like I don’t fit in.
I’ve learned a lot from my experience and my hard times and I’m becoming great at giving advice. But, I’m not great when it comes to myself. I’m opening up in this blog because I want to help you overcome the stuff that I’ve struggled with.
I often feel trapped in this world with nowhere for me to go. I often feel like I’m not good enough. I feel trapped in a bubble - some days are really good and some days are really bad; some days I love life, some days I don’t like it. But, if there’s one thing I learned through my struggles, it’s that you can never give up. What good is that going to do? What good is it going to do if you just sit around feeling sorry for yourself and just moping around in life? Yes, you’re going to have struggles; yes you’re going to feel down; yes, sometimes, you’re going to feel like you’re not good enough; but sitting around complaining about it and giving up is not going to do anything. Sometimes, you have to step way out of your comfort zone in order to get anywhere.
Here’s an exercise for you. Make a list of some positive things in your life and some negative things. It might help you to see these side-by-side. Chances are the positive things are bigger and way more important than the negative things. Depending on how you answer this question, you may start to realize there are some things you need to change. It’s different for every person. But, as an example, you may realize there are some people in your life making you stronger and some making you weaker. You may want to spend more time with friends and family that are making you stronger.
If you would like to contact me, my email address is hudson@hudsontellsall.com.