YOU CAN'T HELP ME NOW

I don't know what they told you, but sometimes the sunlight falls heavy, and maybe sometimes just sometimes, my heart feels a little unsteady. Of course, you can never be ready, although it may seem a little petty, you may just be more than a little sweaty, and sometimes you just can't seek advice from your Aunt Betty. Sometimes, maybe just sometimes, you may have to work a little bit harder to get out of some stuff. There are going to be times you are there for yourself. There are going to be times no one is there to push you and you have to push yourself. Just get your butt out of bed in the morning and do whatever the hell you have to do to stay above water and improve your well being. You will always have people for support to be your crutch and walk alongside you, you will not have someone to pick you up off the ground and carry you to the hospital. You will have someone for a crutch, you will not have them for a bean bag. You still have to push yourself. You still have to trust yourself, and you need to realize not everyone's there to save your butt, sometimes people are there to kick you in the butt.

You may not want to fight, you may not want to leave, you may not want to be here, but you will suck it up. Fake it until you make it, hyperventilate until you breathe, cry until your tears are dry, and then you will be able to look up at the big blue freaking sky, before you die, go out there and live your life...

A lot of people are there to support you, a lot of people are there to bring toilet paper, not wipe your butt! You still have to make decisions on your own. Sometimes you have to be your own strength and realize if you want to improve you have to change and make yourself change, so that way when someone needs you to walk alongside them and be their mentor and bring them their toilet paper, you can do that. If you are cracked and have bruises and cracks, you can still support others, but if you are broken and shattered you better get your butt up get your broom out and sweep up the pieces or at least begin to put yourself together and love yourself. Do not try to help others pick up their pieces if you sure as hell aren't even ready to pick up your own. Be your own hero before you decide to be someone else's.


You'll be glad you did, your life is finally going to start improving and you're finally going to be getting the opportunity you never thought you would get let people support you and be there for you in your time of need, but do not make them pick you up off the floor and take you to the hospital for your broken leg or dislocated shoulder.