Here are some things that I wrote in my journal last year when I was struggling more than I am now. “I often feel like I'm not good enough and like I won't ever find anyone. It's really hard when I've been turned down two times for homecoming. It's even harder when I'm turned down by my friends. Sometimes, I wish I had someone that has my back and was there for me besides just my family. I just want a friend to be there for me too, especially on the days I have a good day but still come home and cry for no reason. My family is amazing they're always there for me no matter what.”
Here is another one: “Dear Journal, I'm writing to tell you I feel like crap today. Some days are really good, some days not so good. Today was not very good. I feel trapped inside myself today and I feel stuck I feel like there is no way out. I feel like sh** today, feeling like I'm trapped and the world is closing in on me. I’m not sure what's happening to me, but I know God has a plan for my life even though it doesn't seem like it yet.”
When I’m doing well, I get asked how I keep so positive and come up with good advice. Obviously, I’m not always positive, but I would have to say I have learned a lot from my experience. Last year was a hard, hard year for me, and looking back, I might want to change some things, but not a lot. I learned a lot from my hard experience. Things are starting off much better for me this year and I finally feel like I'm finding myself and having a breakthrough, that's how I come up with advice through experiences being negative isn't going to change the experience.