I have always struggled with my mental health. I have always felt like I will never be enough, and my insecurities and disability tend to keep me from living my best life.
I have always found myself blaming people for wronging me, making me feel insignificant.
I have always felt insecure, but whenever something happens, when someone does something or says something to make me feel bad, I tend to take a full 180, and my thoughts and interactions start to run wild.
I have always felt like if somebody didn't like me, I must have done something wrong.
I finally came to the realization I want to do and be more. Not just do more, but to become more.
I realized that no one is coming to save me or pull me out of my struggles. Instead, I need to take responsibility and use them to grow. I want to turn my pain into the best version of myself.
I decided I don't want my anger and fear, sadness, depression, anxiety, life to get in the way of growing and learning from my daily pain and struggle.
For me, I was struggling because I hadn't become a person worth knowing. So I let every vice, bad habit, and temptation take over my life.
"The devil was knocking at my door, and I kept letting him in rather than tell him to F%$# off" – Tim Denning.
I made fun of everyone I came into contact with to cover up my insecurities. But, most of all, I made fun of people in love.
I always kind of used to think love never really existed because I've always had a hard time loving because I have never really loved myself.
For those of you struggling, what you need to do is become more. You need to be able to pick up on your flaws and then work on them. You need to be committed to become more in society and hold yourself to a higher standard.
You can so much, and you can bring about a phenomenal change in this world if you just let go. So let go of your fear, how you're perceived by others, your fake-ass social media lifestyle, your too cool school image, and anything else that is not serving you.