I've never really been one for inner or outer peace. I have always felt like my whole body, my whole spirit, my whole soul, and my entire psyche has run better off things like stress, chaos, depression, fear, anger, and sadness, or rather not that it necessarily runs better off that but just that my body has been so used to it.
I have always wanted peace, and I have always searched for it. I have never been able to attain peace, but instead, I have always felt like inner peace is unattainable for my soul, and I have never been able to find it. Some days I feel close.
I have always had amazing things happened to me on the outside and the surface, but I have never been able to find true inner peace about stuff around me and feel like everything will be okay no matter what occurs.
I have always tried to control too much of the outcome. And when you try to control finding inner peace, that is most often when you will fail. When you seek inner peace with aggression, you most likely will not find it. You need to approach it elegantly and gracefully, with love, passion, determination, and a growth mindset.
Over the past couple of months, I have started realizing I feel like I have not deemed myself like I have found inner peace, contentment, and joy because I have always searched for some end date. Like one day, all of a sudden, I would wake up and consistently have joy and happiness that would never end.
I discovered you couldn't have peace and joy and commitment all one day all of a sudden, but rather a journey and a piece of a puzzle you need to put together every single day to build up inner peace and joy in your soul gradually.
It's the inner peace work, The Continuous hard work, the continuous commitment, and the continuing to improve and be a better person.
It's called inner peace work because even on the days you feel like it's unattainable and you need it all at once every day, you will begin to find a piece of what works and chip away some pieces slowly that is eating at your soul.
This is called inner peace work! Not Inner Peace Day! It's okay to feel like shit one day and feel like you don't have peace or contentment inside of you, and your whole body is in a fight or flight response as long as you're doing the workday by day, piece by piece, to discover your peace. Just don't let the internet and anxiety, stress, and fear get in the way or damage your ability to fight for inner peace, love, patience, kindness, and self-control.